> "all I have known is brokenness"

I'm sorry if your experiences have been like that.

But since the common denominator in ALL of those experiences was YOU... it's likely that there's something "broken" inside you. Therefore you find broken men and fall into broken relationships.

Most men are not like you depict them. Then, why did you always meet men like those? Why did you choose them?

Most of the time, the world act as a mirror: it reflects they way we are. E.g. if I don't respect myself, I won't likely be respected much.

"If you run into an asshole in the morning, you ran into an asshole. If you run into assholes all day, you're the asshole." (Raylan Givens)